The M Word so far…

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton

Welcome to “The M Word” and my first blog post!

Alot of people have asked what my blogs are about and the answer is, everything. I wanted to create a blog that would realte to everyone out there who was battling with something in their lives and thought if there was somewhere out there that they could go to to get away from real life and hear someone elses problems and experiences it would help them with their own.

So here it is, my blog “The M Word”. About everything, Motherhood, Motivation, Mental Health, Money, you name it it’s in here. And I wanted to share my experiences to help others, kind of a laugh at my pain blog.

So, here’s the first bit, “ME”…first of all, remember that it’s ok not to be okay, and it’s ok if you wake up some mornings and don’t feel like getting out of bed, it’s ok if you feel like having a cry, or even if you’re sat at work or the kids are crying and you think “I’ve had enough” it’s ok. Don’t ever feel bad for being human, don’t ever feel bad for having feelings and emotions, even the men, it’s OKAY.

My journey started about fourteen years ago, I was thirteen and at the point hormones were the in thing and everyone had them, but mine were a battle from the word go, after losing a very dear and amazing family member I took a downward spiral into a very dark lifestyle and throughout my teenage years I struggled with depression and even a small personality disorder, where I would try and live as a completely different person to try and hide the fact that my life was not what I wanted it to be. I attempted suicide twice at the age of nineteen and felt that I just couldn’t carry on.

I went through bad relationships, I went through bad times, I took the “happy pills” on four different occasions over a six year span and moved to several cities thinking a fresh start would be a fresh scene to set myself up on, but it didn’t work.

The final slap to the face was this year aged twenty six, living with the love of my life, just beaten depression and we had found out in the summer that we were expecting our first baby….but that wasn’t the case, at all.

August this year Baby Bambino decided to take a vacation and vacate the premises, and it was the hardest thing I think out of everything I have had to face, staring an empty screen where our baby should have been felt like my heart had been ripped out o my chest and a “Failed” sign had been put there instead.

So why now you might ask….well, why not? I have suffered a lifetime of emotional rollercoasters, money problems, career choices and fitness fads and fails. And now it’s time to share my experiences to help others know whatever it is you are going through, no matter how dark the tunnel might feel, no matter how dark your thoughts are and if you are out there and youo’re desperate for a family of your own and want that job, and you want that body, I am here to tell you that it is ok.

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton

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